I followed the yellow brick road somewhere over the rainbow. I know there is no place like my home at Hogwarts. I can move a stair case and fall down a rabbit hole. On my way I'll pick up a fur coat, and wander through Narnia. Then I'll take a ship across the seas, following the ticking clock and with a little pixie dust, find myself in Neverland.
Sometimes when I’m alone to think or my mind just wanders because I’m doing something not very interesting, I think about certain times that I’ve said and/or done something that to me sounds perfectly fine, but to another person it’s not fine. I’ve sounded smug, rude, snobby, anything that is deemed “taboo” and basically not very nice.
I honestly don’t mean to come across like that - sometimes I talk without thinking and it isn’t until it’s too late when I realise how bitchy or horrid I’ve sounded. And yes I feel like a number one royal idiot. :( So stupid!! If I could erase that from my mind and other people’s minds, I surely would. “If I could turn back time/if I could find a way”
Even though it’s in my head, I know most likely it’s not in someone else’s. I’m sure they aren’t sitting thinking “Oh gee I remember that time like 3 years ago when Monique was totally bitchy/said something really smug/talked herself up like she was better than anyone else” (Well at least I hope not). So because of that, I’m not sure how to go about making those wrongs right …. I would probably have to track down every single person I have ever spoken to in my entire life and make them remember the past event and then apologise for it - this even includes strangers that I’ve probably only spoken to ONCE in my life :| I really don’t see that happening any time soon though
Dear dear followers - I believe that there are times that we can’t apologise for and it will consistently prey on our minds until we can’t remember the past anymore. Our minds seem to hold onto random dumb, horrible moments and never shake them no matter how hard we try. I guess all we can really do is carry on as much as possible and be sorry in our own way
This post can never make up for the crap I’ve said and the way I’ve said it but I will do what I can to be a better person. I’m taking small steps and hopefully they will work for me one day. I’m so sorry to everyone that has had to put up with me and hope that one day I can be forgiven.
Much love to all xo
@1 week ago with 98265 notes
If you’re suffering from depression and are looking for a sign to not go through with ending your life, this is it. This is the sign. We care.
If you see this on your dash, reblog it. You could save a life.
@2 weeks ago with 301915 notes
I really do! You know you can talk to me about anything, I don’t bite ;)