I followed the yellow brick road somewhere over the rainbow. I know there is no place like my home at Hogwarts. I can move a stair case and fall down a rabbit hole. On my way I'll pick up a fur coat, and wander through Narnia. Then I'll take a ship across the seas, following the ticking clock and with a little pixie dust, find myself in Neverland.
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My previous post was in no way fishing for attention. Being serious with that - I just feel this is the best place to let out feelings because I feel more accepted here and can voice my opinions more because no one will judge me =) x
This is the best place to vent =) Thank you for listening x
There comes a time in your life, no matter how old you are or anything like that, where you start to question yourself and what you are doing. You start to wonder if you will ever be good enough for anyone, good enough to achieve your goals, good enough for life really.
You then realise that maybe it’s because you aren’t a good person. You start to replay certain points in your existence where you were mean, rude, angry, upset for no reason and realise that maybe it’s that sort of thing that it coming back to bite you and teach you a lesson.
Tonight was one of those times where I sit down and think about how much I feel down on myself and of course I cry. I know of course that my problems are nowhere near as bad as what most people have, but at the same time they are my problems and I can’t “see past the end of my nose” when it comes to them. And why should I? My problems are my own and I’m sorry to sound selfish, but I really can’t deal with anyone else when I just want to have my own moment.
I always get into this headspace, because someone will say something to set it off, or someone will do something to annoy or upset me and off I go. My mind goes racing and puts all these thoughts in my head, making me feel unworthy and not good enough and just remind me why certain people don’t want to deal with me, don’t want to be around me and don’t want me as a friend despite outward appearance.
Sometimes I sit and wonder why I bother, whether or not it’s worth it and maybe it would just be easier to take myself off the radar and continue on with my life without the other outside crap. I’ve often got to a point where I just want to pack up and leave the country, live somewhere else and not tell anyone until we actually got there.
And then of course I realise that I’m acting rashly, I’m over thinking the situation and maybe I should just trust that someday things will fall into place and start to work. Things will start to go right…..
So then I change things, start thinking and acting positive and guess what happens?
Not a fucking thing - not even joking. Everything stays the same because that’s just the way things are for me. Sure, I could get up and go out there and change things for the better myself and not wait for it to change for me, but I’ve tried that. I really have! And again nothing changes.
I just feel like I constantly have to challenge myself and prove myself to everyone I know to show that I’m a good person, a good wife, a good mother, a good friend, a good worker. Good Good Good …. but no. Everyone sees the nasty, what happened in the past and I can just feel the negative vibes, I can feel the taunts and gossiping. I know people are talking about me behind my back- who wouldn’t though? I would - how awful is that? I would gossip and bitch about myself. Pretty sure I already do - which is probably part of my problem.
When it really comes down to it, I just don’t know how to deal and manage my emotions. I wear my heart on my sleeve, I wear my emotions on my face and if I were to be really honest with every single person I met, I wouldn’t be married with two kids, no friends and I think the only people I would talk to would be …..
Who knows. Maybe I shouldn’t go down that road
@2 weeks ago with 16951 notes
99% of being a musical theatre fan is singing duets by yourself
But that’s the beauty of it, because you spent hours memorizing all of these elaborate songs performed by multiple people and they seem to just melt into you and become a part of you, and when you find that person who recognizes that tune you’re humming or catches on your vague song references, you’re both perfectly capable of belting that duet together
and that’s the beauty of musical theatre